skinny...x

I feel that I am fat...but then I feel that that is a stupid thing to be concerned with...a stupid shallow thing. I feel mostly that I have lost control over myself. I feel that I want to gain that control back by becoming thin. And then maybe I will feel less sluggish and more in control...Its worth a shot right?....

Perhaps...

Hello...I just passed my review at college...they said that my work is flawless...I like that. I like that they understand my work, it gives me hope because I have had people tell me that they don't like my work, and to know that the people who matter actually think i'm good at what I do makes me feel really good. I just want to inspire people, I know that sounds odd...but I do, I want to make people see the world in a different way. Too many people go through life being ignorant and missing out on the beauty and chaos that surrounds them. Sometimes I think that I am a liitle bit out there, I look at things in such great detail...give things meaning that really don't deserve it. Is that conceptual..?...I am rambling now. It's like when I was young, and I hurt myself and someone I loved gave me a plaster...even after the wound healed I would keep it as a token. A token of love...someone caring enough to give you that little token.Wanting you to heal....I guess that could be seen as wierd. But normality is something I could never get to grips with...What is normal?...Everyone is...and isn't...but it is those who are that arn't....haha...that's pretty in a confusing way...x

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pretty pretty pretty ness...x

pretty...x

Buzzing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

lovely noise...x

Hmmm so you see...right now I am completely sober. I am thinking about nothing in particular...I should be doing work, but I am just sat...here...thinking about nothingness. Why is it that when I'm sober the world makes less sense? I like the feeling of not having to worry about anything...that is what drugs give to a person...freedom from the world...because the world can be a horrible place. But when you are flying high...you see the world in a completely different light, and everything seems magical...x But I guess everyone has their own reasons...x

Maybe I should'nt be writing this...but to be honest, I won't lie because then people could'nt see the truth...about me. And besides...If you knew me...you would know that I'm a liar anyway...so the truth is something that you should be priveleged to know...or to read....x

How frickin gay?!?

Well...I am pissed off...my internet is sooooo slow...well...it's facebook messing it up really, there's something wierd about facebook...I think it brainwashes you, I mean all I think of is playing this frickin sad game called Ravenwood Fair...and then when I'm not playing that I just sit and stare at the screen, stalking all sorts of people I don't really know...I mean...wtf?....that is not cool, surely if you didn't have facebook that waould make you cooler...because that would mean you actually have a social life...but then it doesn't work like that either, because people now need to see proof, photo evidence that you have a social life...tis soooo wierd...I'm ranting cus i'm bored by the way...and I need a fag!...aha...I can't even have one...and i have no money...i justttt neeed a smoookkkkeeeeeee...lol I'm a pretentious fag...x

I like cake!!!!

I like cake...tis sooo nice...all kinds of cake...cus i'm the cake man...omnomnom...eat the cake bake the cake...space...cake...SPACE IN DA CAKE...i like weed...im hungeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....i wanna go to a spa an av a massage innit...i ruiened the loveliness of it...poopssss....shitaki...mushrooms!!!...magic mushrooms...!!!

Byebyebyebyebyebye...x