Thursday, 24 June 2010

life...x

I'm not good at life at the moment, only 2 things are making me happy, and thats Vincent, and my friends...x I am having problems with my family and I think thats because I need more freedom. I don't know. My mum seems to hate me and I don't know why...x I just wish she would accept me for who I am and understand that I love Vincent, more than anything, and that he makes me happy...x

Oh I don't know...x

I need him to give me a hug...x

On the upside though, Vincent and I are going to Chesterfield College Art Exhibition tonight, I am quite excited :)...x Then hopefully I will be spending the weekend with him :)...that will make me very happy :)

Anyways will probably write later cause I am waiting in school for Vincent and I get bored very quickly :P

need a picture nowwww...ermmmy...1 sec...goooogle...:)



yay! Byebyebyebyebyebyebye...x

Wednesday, 23 June 2010

haha me thinks...

yeah K bye...x
Seattle police officers investigate the greenhouse where Cobain's body was found, April 8, 1994.

Seattle police known to be at the scene were:
Capt. Larry Farrar
Lt. George Marberg, Lt. Al Gerdes, Lt. Ziminsky
Sgt. Don Cameron, Sgt. Jeff Getchman
Det. Jim Yoshida, Det. Steve Kirkland
Off. Joe Fewel, Off. Von Levandowski
King County Medical Examiners:
Investigator Dave Delgado
Dr. Nick Hartshorne, Dr. Donald Raey
Officers who were present made very little effort to preserve the scene and document it thoroughly; arriving at 9:50am the scene was secured by 11:55am. Perhaps this was corruption or incompetence without intent, either way its negligence. These reports of the scene are clearly based on fact but inaccuracies fill the holes; inaccuracies that paint a suicidal environment.
"Nowhere in the police handling of the scene will you find any indication that the detectives were there to do anything but write up a report on the death and then get out of there... No standard
forensics testing such as fingerprint, footprint, fiber sampling, etcetera, was done at the scene. Homicide detectives were apparently willing to entertain no notion but that this was a suicide." - Richard Lee - "No evidence, it seems, is needed to close a case of alleged self-murder."
From the limited visual view and description the greenhouse appears clinical and does not corroborate with what Dylan Carlson and others have said; “It’s just a dirty little room.” Along with Dylan’s other statement – “I’ve never seen the house this clean before,” these testimonies lead to the suspicion of an intently ‘swept’ crime scene, a fundamental observation in every investigation implying a more complicated scenario.
Nikolas Hartshorne: "The fact that there was a suicide note left at the scene, point one. Point two: the weapon is still at the scene and point three: the nature of the injury. This was a contact shotgun wound to the mouth that required the gun to be against the decedent's chest and with this information makes it a classic textbook example of suicide." (VH1 Confidential)
Point one - when the authenticity of the suicide note is later questioned, Hartshorne claims one factor he pronounced as being a reason in the conclusion of suicide is now "irrelevant."
Point two and three - its logical to suggest that in the reconstruction of a 'textbook' suicide the perpetrate[s] would manipulate the crime scene fabricating the essentials, and certainly in this scene all the artifacts are ideally placed. This is no basis at all to conclude a verdict of suicide without consideration of other variables and inconsistencies present. - 'The perfect assassination looks like suicide'
3D Crime Scene Diagram
This model is not to scale, it is directly deduced from the information provided in the police reports documenting where items were located. Polaroid and 35mm cameras were used to document the scene. The films have never been developed, and to a much lesser extent the polaroids never released - "We don't develop photographs on suicides." Sgt. Cameron.
Therefore the only discernible information about the crime scene is from police reports and witness accounts. please discern the fact this diagram does not take into account the pitched roof).




The inverted shotgun distinguishing the orientation that relates to the scene diagram.




Excerpt from the Follow Up Report:



The significance of the shotgun being inverted (trigger and magazine trap door pointing up) is that it places the ejection port (where the spent shell is ejected from when fired) to Kurt's right (south). Yet the spent shell was documented as being found to Kurt's left (north). Why?
This scenario seems to defy the physics of when a gun is fired, the trappings of assimilation with some fundamental errors; It is to be believed the shotgun rotated 180° (while remaining in Kurt's left hand which was found clutching the barrell, due to rigor), and also remained ideally positioned, resting parallel on Kurt's chest directed toward his chin. Keep this in mind - "The barrel of this shotgun retracts 3" as it automatically loads the next shell into the chamber." - (Tom Grant, p.38)
On a side related issue, in this picture it's possible to presumably see the butt of the shotgun between Kurt's legs as stated in the police reports.
"Gary Smith who happens to be a journeyman electrician with no alcohol or drugs or criminal record in his background, also reports that a note was clearly visible by the body, so clear that he could read: "I Love You... I Love You" through the french windows. When the details filtered out to the press it seemed as if Kurt had placed the note in a planter box with a pen stuck through it (as reflected in the police reports). In reality the police photographer moved it across the room to get a better shot of it and failed to photograph it in it's exact original position near the body."

- A passage taken from Hank Harrison's book, Beyond Nirvana, p54.
This apparently originates from conversation between Grant and Smith, which Grant later divulged to Harrison.


MISINFORMED SUICIDAL TRAITS:
Although these factors all seem small, they were widely proliferated around the death of Kurt and had an impact by misleading people to draw conclusions as to what had happened on false facts.
1.) Namely the positioning of a stool. It was reported at the time Kurt had barricaded himself inside the room: Police narrative: "There are stairs on the west side leading to the french door entry and another set of french doors on the east side which lead to a balcony. These doors are unlocked and closed but there is a stool with a box of gardening supplies on it in front of the door." - "Off. Levandowski observed the french doors at the opposite end of the room were blocked by a stool; preventing access."
This factor should have been of little relevance, the stool was only sitting infront of an unlocked set of doors that led to a balcony. Not only that, but the eastern french doors open outwards onto the balcony, this makes the notion of a barricade (suggesting nobody could leave) completely irrelevant; an assailant could exit and draw the stool up close to the door before shutting it.
The west entrance french doors were not blocked; Although locked, this was a simple twist lock which can be locked prior to leaving.
April 15th, Grant met with Sgt. Cameron to discuss his suspicions and mentioned the lock on the western door does not qualify in concluding Kurt was alone, to which Cameron replied - "There was a stool wedged up against the door" - False. The misconstrued media myth of a barricade prevailed.
The importance being Smith's testimony is an eye witness illustration of police tampering with material evidence.


2.) A recognised mannerism in violent suicide is to leave a form of identification readily available. It was reported by the media that Kurt had infact left his wallet open displaying his drivers license. This is completely untrue, in reality the closed wallet was opened by an officer - "SFD asked for I.D. from the nearby wallet, and I opened the wallet which was within a couple of feet of the victims body. Inside I found a Washington state drivers license in the name of Cobain, Kurt Donald DOB/022067".


3.) Reports documenting a crime scene should be described factually, without bias and final conclusions. In this case it obviously wasn't; the note left at the scene was claimed to incite suicide and was written to Courtney and Frances explaining "why he had killed himself". These remarks were pronounced before a clear evaluation could have been made and were taken as fact.
These small points which indicate manipulation of the factual crime scene were leaked to the hungry media and deceptively confirmed this as a suicide in retrospect.

BLOOD POOL?
According to police reports there was "obvious trama" to the head but no exit wound, resulting in "a large drying puddle of blood to the left of the victim." - Was the volume of blood ever seriously evaluated in relation to the nature of the injury? Gary Smith who initially mistook the body for a mannequin because it looked so neat only realised the situation when he noticed blood in the right ear. Does this picture sound feasible for a shotgun wound to the head suicide? Clearly we have no pictures that display whether the pool was sufficient or non-sufficient for the type of wound made this is merely an assumption based upon Smith's perception.
In the case of a gunshot wound to the head the wound continues to issue copious amounts of blood for a short period due to the autonomic function of the heart. There are other factors this is reliant upon such as the angle of the shot, all of which we do not yet know, inclusive of the autospy report.
This is best demonstrated by Bud Dwyer, who committed suicide on camera during a press conference (viewer discretion is advised, this is vivid imagery). The comparative lack of blood for this type of trauma is an indication that the gunshot might have been administered post-mortem, the heart had already stopped; the result of a lethal dosage of heroin, and possibly blood coagulation already begun. The supposition that no exit wound would result in a lack of blood is false, as seen in Bud Dwyer's case the exit wound is irrelevant to the volume of blood lost. In addition the destruction to the palette of the mouth would be comparatively larger when factoring in a shotgun.
This scenario would either assume corruption on the part of the medical examiner who performed the autospy; Nikolas Hartshorne, or severe incompetence, as the picture is very different if a wound is delivered post death. The question being could the perpetrate[s] foreshadow a non-investigation by the police unless they knew someone had the power to cover it up beforehand?
It is very possible the shotgun wound was administered while Kurt was under sedation, in this case the cause of death would be a perforating shotgun wound to the mouth.

Just something to consider...




He might not even be dead, no forensic tests were carried out...whas it even his body?

Kurt Cobain lives on!!!



Byebyebyebyebyebyebyebye..x

Suicide note...x


To Boddah:








Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton
who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile
complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to
understand.
All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over
the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we
say, ethics involved with independence and the
embracement of your community had proven to be
very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening
to as well as creating music along with reading and
writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond
words about these things.
For example, when we're backstage and the lights go
out and the manic roar of the crowds begin, it doesn't
affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury,
who seemed to love, relish in the love and adoration
from the crowd which is something I totally admire
and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you.
It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I
can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and
pretending as if I'm having 100% fun.

Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time
clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything
within my power to appreciate it (and I do, God,
believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate
the fact that I and we have affected and
entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those
narcissists who only appreciate things when they're
gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in
order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.
On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better
appreciation for all the people I've known personally,
and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over
the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for
everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I
simply love people too much, so much that it makes
me feel too sad. The sad little, sensitive,
unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you
just enjoy it? I don't know!

I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition
and empathy and a daughter who reminds me
too much of what I used to be, full of love and joy,
kissing every person she meets because everyone is
good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me
to the point to where I can barely function. I can't
stand the thought of Frances becoming the
miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've
become.

I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but
since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards
all humans in general. Only because it seems so
easy for people to get along that have empathy.
Only because I love and feel sorry for people too
much, I guess.

Thank you all from the pit of my burning,
nauseous stomach for your letters and concern
during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic,
moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so
remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.
Peace, love, empathy,
Kurt Cobain

Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your altar.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.



I love you, I love you!

The parts I have highlighted in red are the bits that I dont believe that Kurt cobain would have written. The most part of the note is just himself apologising to his fans and saying that he is going to basically quit Nirvana and start a new life...the rest is her...and as you can see in the picture the hand writing does change at the bottom..x

I am right, I know I am....x


I feel ill now...x

Erm..Bye...x

Obsessed...x

Now I realize this may sound a little brash or even shocking to most of my readers, most of whom, like myself fell for all the news stories of his suicide.


But this was probably the most fumbled or covered up homicide investigation ever! Actually it wasn't even an investigation, it was declared a suicide before the police even arrived on the scene! Seems hard to believe, right? But there's more... How many people commit suicide with a very high and very fatal dose of heroin and then neatly put away the drug paraphernalia taking care to wipe clean the fingerprints?

Then, after this fatal dose of heroin, is able to finish himself off with a shotgun blast and once again, carefully remove fingerprints, this time from the shotgun?

OK, there are a lot of questions that have never been answered.

It's not my objective here to place blame on anyone. But they always say in any murder investigation to "follow the money." Who would have gained the most from Kurt Cobain's death? No, couldn't be her. After all haven't we all heard on the news about that happy couple, Kurt and Courtney? They didn't tell you that Kurt's lawyer was working on divorce papers and this lawyer had prepared a new will (just waiting for his signature) that would have cut out Courtney? And that since the couple had signed pre-nups, Courtney wouldn't get much in the divorce.

Of course, Kurt Cobain had drug problems, but it seemed like he was just beginning to turn his life around and making many plans for his life without Courtney.

Maybe Courtney had nothing to do with Kurt's demise, but she was sure anxious to get rid of all the evidence. She had his body cremated in a day or so, the blood-soaked shirt Kurt was wearing, she made sure she got back immediately, so she could wear it!

No, it had to be a suicide, after all wasn't there a suicide note written by Kurt? Yes there was a note in Kurt's signature, some have said that this was actually a note he was working on to his fans, because he was dropping out of that part of the music business he had been in and moving to New York. It's interesting that there was a an addition to this suicide note that spelled out in more detail that he was ending it all. And very Interesting though that this addition to the note wasn't even in Kurt's handwriting and didn't match the rest of the note! And there was good information that Courtney had in her possession a sheet of paper that was a practice sheet for what was written on that suspicious addition to the "suicide" note!

Care to look over some of this evidence for yourself?

Photos and news stories on KURT COBAIN’S death…

http://www.kurtcobainnews.com/Death-Kurt-Cobain.html

How did KURT COBAIN really die? Do these photos tell the whole story?

http://www.kurtcobainnews.com/kurt-cobain-crime-scene-photos.html

Here’s some photos of KURT COBAIN’S HOUSE in Seattle, including shots of the room over the garage where Kurt died:

http://www.kurtcobainnews.com/Kurt-Cobain-House-Photos.html

((yes i did paste this from another blog, but I thought that people need to understand where my thinking comes from, I am not insane, this did happen, I am not the only one who believes it...))

Tuesday, 22 June 2010

sexiest man alive!!!!





HOT!
Byebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebye...x

Sooooo frickin boreedddd !!!


i have 45 minutes to wait till the end of the day, just so I can see Vincent...! Tis sooo ficking gay...! The only reson I come to school is to see him, and the rest of the time i am sat like a lonerrr doing nothing but writing these frickin blogs that don't even turn out interesting, so I am sorry if you are reading these thinking that I am boring...haha...! But infact I guess no one reads these so it doesn't really matter...x

ERM!!!!! PICTURE?????YES PLEASE!!!!!